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Pag mahal mo, mahal mo! wala ng kasi kasi, wala ng pero pero.

from Top to Bottom

1st TOP 10 Questions on my mind that puzzling for a long time:

1. Bakit ko kailangang magtrabaho at magpakahirap kung pwede naman ako mang-uto?

2. Sino ba ang dapat kong lapitan kapag nagkakagipitan?

3. Bakit ang hirap gumawa at panindigan ng tamang desisyon?

4. Kanino nga ba ako magkakaroon ng tunay na kaligayahan?

5. Bakit walang kakuntentuhan ang mga tao?

6. Bakit paulit-ulit ang mga bagay na ayaw kong mangyari?

7. Saan ako madalas pumupunta sa tuwing wala akong magawa?

8. Nagmahal na ba ako o magaling lang akong magkunwari?

9. Hanggang kailan akong magpapakalulong sa work at bahay?

10. Gaano kahirap ang isang bagay na matagal mong ng pinapangarap pero wala ka pa ding makitang liwanag?

And from the BOTTOM of my heart and floating to my hypothalamus gave an answers to my own every querries:

1. In my 22 years of living, natutunan kong hindi lahat ng bagay na gusto natin ay pwedeng mapasaatin, meron lamang talaga mga bagay na sadyang para sa atin at meron din na itinakda para sa iba at hindi para sa akin. We need to work for us also to test ourselves kung hanggang saan ba talaga ang kaya ng sarili natin, through this mas makikilala natin sarili natin. Sige, mang-uto ka. Duwag ka ba, takot ka ba sa buhay? Di ganun men!

2. Syempre cno pa ba, ang malalapit kong kaibigan na subok ko na sa samahan. Ang pamilya o kamag-anak. Ung tipong walang deadline at pwedeng ilista na lang sa tubig. hahah pero di din ganun men!

3. Truth hurts sabi nga, reality bites! Mahirap harapin ang katotohanan dahil kadalasan masakit ito tanggapin.

4. Sa dinami-dami ng tao sa mundo, maraming tao ang pwedeng makapag bigay ng ligaya o saya sa atin, pero wala sa kanila ag ikaliligaya natin. Nasa sarili natin yun, its all in the mind ika nga. Kung ang mindset natin ay my malamang kahit konteng positivity, di malayong kaya natin lumigaya sa sarili natin. Bago pa tayo lumigaya ng dahil sa ibang tao. Hindi tayo makakapag pasaya ng ibang tao kung sarili mo di mo alam kung paano pasayahin. Love yourself.

5. Mahirap talaga iachieve ang word na contentment. Dahil tayong mga tao, napakaraming wants na syempre gusto makuha. Sino ba naman ang ayaw umasenso. Lahat gusto ng masaya at maluwag na pamumuhay, kung masaya ako ngayon, im still looking forward for the future. See? Paging contentment!

6. Kung alin pa yung mga bagay na ayaw mo, yun pa yung kadalasan nagyayari. Repeated experiences. Siguro masyado matigas ulo natin na ginagawa pa rin mga bagay na di na dapat gawin, babalik at babalik ka lang sa pare parehas na pangyayari. Repeat and repeat.

7. Comfort zone ko ang kwarto ko, lahat naman tayo home is our comfort zone. Pag wala ako magawa sa buhay, mas pinipili ko dito sa kwarto dahil mas nawawala boredom ko, miss lang siguro magrest talaga out of daily work! One more, sa close cousin ko na nasasabihan ko ng lahat ng bagay tungkol sa aking sarili. Through that, i can be more expressive.

8. Madami na din dumaan sa buhay ko, nakarelasyon. Pero iilan lang yung mga taong masasabing minahal ko. Tuwing masasaktan ako, madalas ako magkunwari na kaya ko. Pero sa sarili ko, sobrang sakit. Senti! but its ok, i know naman kc na nangyari ang lahat ng yun for good reasons. One thing na ayaw ko magstay ay ang bitterness, dahil hindi ka mkakamoved on pag my bitterness pa towards that person.

9. I really dont know when this dillemma stop! Hoping. Its almost two years right after my college graduation, im still here. Wala ako magawa, may baril ka nga, wala ka nman bala. I believe, in the right time makakawala ako dito. Paging.. right time!

10. Sa aking sitwasyon, simpleng mahirap. Simple lang buhay ko, pero mahirap pinagdaanan ko. Hindi biro lumaki ng walang kinagisnang mga magulang and all of the sudden mawalan pa ng kapatid. Isinantabi ko na un. Ginawa ko pa nga inspirasyon to move forward and strive hard. At alam ko din naman na kahit ganun, im still blessed! Very blessed! Dahil kahit ang isang pulubi man sa lansangan ay pinagpala. The fact na nakita nya pa ganda ng mundo ay isang blessing na. Pero kung hndi mo un nakikita as blessing sa isang pulubi sa lansangan, marahil ikaw ang my problema.  I know im always doing my best pero bakit nga ba hindi ko pa rin makita ang liwanag. Mahirap, sobrang mahirap! Pero kinakaya dahil naniniwala ako sa aking kakayahan at my paniniwala ako kay Lord. Just like whats the thought of one of my quotes to live by.. “a sense of purpose is the best driving force to live, coz when we have the reason to live, we will never have a reason to quit.” Definitely yes. Aba, nabuhay na nga ako ng 22years susuko pa ba ako? The minute you think of giving up, think of the reasons why you held on so long!

Dont dream its over!

IKAW, anong gusto mo TOP o BOTTOM?

Top na puro katanungan o bottom ba na puro kasagutan???

These questions have no right or wrong answers.

Because sometimes asking the right questions is the answer.

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?  —18
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying? — NEVER TRYING
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? —NO CHOICE BUT TO DO.
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? —YES
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? — GRAFT & CORRUPTION
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? — PUBLIC SERVICE
7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing? — I JUST BELIEVE IN MYSELF.
8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? —LESS WORK, MORE FUN.
9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken? — 2ND DEGREE BURN? lols :D
10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? — DOING THINGS RIGHT.
11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do? — JUST TALK TO THEM IN A GOOD MANNER. :))
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? — BE A GOOD SERVANT.
13. Would you break the law to save a loved one? — YUP, IF NEEDED.
14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity? — NO?
15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people? — BEING A DJ.
16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy? — COZ WE HAVE DIFFERENT WANTS.
17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What’s holding you back? — TRAVELLING AND HAVE A VACATION EVEN IN JUST A WEEK.. MY CURRENT SITUATION HOLDING IT BACK. wew BUT ITS OK.. I CAN WAIT.
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? —NO
19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? — STILL HERE IN THE PHILIPPINES, NCR.
20. Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster? -- NO.
21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? — JOYFUL SIMPLETON.
22. Why are you, you? — COZ I AM NOT THEM.. THIS IS ME.. NO OTHER THAN! ME. THRU GOD. :))
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? — YUP I THINK SO, BUT I WANT TO DO ITS FUNCTION MORE DEEPLY.
24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you? --LOSING TOUCH WITH A GOOD FRIEND.
25. What are you most grateful for? — ALL THOSE BLESSINGS.. EACH DAY! MOST? FOR SENDING ME A LOVING GRANDPARENTS.
26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? —I DONT LIKE BOTH. :(
27. Is it possible to know the truth without challenging it first? — OF COURSE.
28. Has your greatest fear ever come true? — NO!
29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now? — YUP YUP.. WHEN MY SISTER DIED.. IT REALLY MATTERS, IT WILL LAST FOREVER!
30. What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special? — SIMPLE BONDING WITH MY COUSINS. SPECIAL BECAUSE I BECAME AND MOLD AS WHAT I AM NOW THRU THEM.
31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?—WHEN WE”RE TOGETHER.. JUST THAT! IM JUST A SIMPLE PERSON, SMALL THINGS MATTERS TO ME.
32. If not now, then when? — ONLY GOD CAN TELL.. BUT IM DOING MY BEST.
33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose? —CURRENT WORK.
34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever? — IT HAPPENED! TO THOSE PEOPLE I VALUE MOST
35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars? — WE HAVE SO MANY RELIGIONS
36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil? — YES.
37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? -- YES !! :))
38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing? — WORK I ENJOYED DOING.
39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before? — YEP MANY TIMES! HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF!
40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in? — A WHILE AGO WHILE ON MY WAY TO HOUSE.
41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? - MY RELATIVES.
42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous? NO.
43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living? BEING ALIVE IS JUST LIVING THE DAY AND PASSED IT WHILE TRULY LIVING IS DOING THINGS WITH A PURPOSE, SHARING YOURSELF TO OTHERS AND BEING A GOOD SERVANT TO GOD.
44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right? — JUST DO WHAT I KNOW IS RIGHT, BUT OF COURSE WITH LIMITATIONS COZ I KNOW WHAT I THINK IS RIGHT MAY BE WRONG FOR OTHERS. ILL JUST LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I KNOW AND DONT MIND IF IF HAVE A REWARD IN RETURN.
45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? — WE ARE AFRAID OF FAILURE.
46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? — I WILL DO EVERYTHING WHAT I WANT.
47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? — A WHILE AGO.. EVERYTIME I HAD A PROBLEM.. wEw!
48. What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love? —HUH?
49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that? — DEFINITELY NOT ! BUT i CAN REMEMBER THOSE DAYS THAt TRULY MARKED INTO MY LIFE.
50. Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you? — IM MAKING IT FOR MYSELF.. SO FOR OTHERS TOO.

• i love this questions, this would probably help us think! questions that need true answers that will free our mind.. Very deep and thought provoking. I just search this through web via google and suddenly found out this one! worth reading and worth answering.. no time burning!

forget about the dream last nyt, panaginip nga ba eh kabaliktaran in real life? wew! another monday and week to enjoy life, GB & GV!

(Note from FB - ReBlogged here)

22 years of living.. akalain mo yun? di ko nga ramdam na 22 na ako! LOLs..

Salamat sa mga nagpost ng greetings sa wall ko.. i replied to all! :D

salamat ng marami sa Ignacio Family kay Tita Emily Ignacio, and daughters Roxanne, Ross Anne & Romily sa paggawa ng fansigns haha and to your friends na pnag-pose nyo sa pics! Kay Sherwin Pedragoza sa paggawa ng 2 video clips.. nasurprise nyo ako ng slight! LOLs.. and sa lahat po ng gumawa ng fansigns for me! many thanks…

Thanks to Ms.Grace Baniqued, Marketing Officer of PBA-Solar TV Management as a bridge for making my some birthday wishes possible.. sa pagbati mula sa Alaska Aces team.. nareceived ko n din kanina lng umaga ung pa-LBC nyo! great birthday gift mula sa inyo at sa PBA! regards and thanks po sa mga players na nag-sign.. i ask for some pero more than pa binigay nyo! maraming salamat mam grace! :))

Salamat din ky Jemarjo Manaog, from highschooldays kahit na ginebra fan magkasundo pa rin kahit ngkakalaban ang team! from Ginebra fan to Alaska fan.. un ang friendship! miss ko na manood ng live games ehehe atlast my remembrance na din ako ke E-Cow ng Alaska! hahaha thanks Jojo! :D

Sa Radyo Natin FM Gumaca family, for almost 2 years of being a DJ.. i learned a lot and iL always look back san man ako mapunta and im looking forward for more, i know marami p ako kelangan matutunan! To our station manager DJ Michelle, program & technical director DJ Casper, DJ KC Cool, DJ Chasty, DJ Shelton, DJ Drix and to my Ate DJ Jasmine na nagturo saken kung pano bumilib sa sariling kakayahan at nagtyagang magGuide! sa mga listeners ng pinakagrabeng radio station.. its me DeeJei Louie! :D

To my friendly crazy friends, highschool days and college years.. Miss ko na kayo, to Joanna Jill Asinas and Clique Barkada, Itim na Magkakapatid, Glenda Cleope and BS Education friends & BS Commerce tropz! its me LOUEL! :))

Sa mga nakilala ko thru social networking sites.. Moko friends, FB friends, Twitter friends and Org friends in Quezon Prov.. hope to have a more gimik time and bonding moments with you guys! alam nyo nah.. its me ACE! lols

At sa mga taong mkkasama at sna mging friends ko din, im looking forward on that day.. bsta just poke me lang! heheh and get to know each other tayo. :D nasl please? hehehe..

To my family and relatives thank you for bringing out the best in me.. iL never be this kind of person without you. From small to big things, lahat ay pantay pantay bastat mula sa puso ang lahat.

Above all, alam na Nya.. im so grateful to have this life.. even its not that perfect, la man ako nagisnang parents.. ngppasalamat ako sa Kanya na bnigyan Nya ko ng loving grandparents at caring mother na nagmahal smin ng ate ko.. its her 7th death year anniv last Feb.22. Sana san ka man ngayon happy ka. Lagi ko cnsabi my journey is for u.. heartfelt!

..marami pa aq gusto sabihin at banggitin, kaso im running out of time, malelate n ako sa work! pinaspasan ko lng gumawa n2.. hahaha! those words are not enough to express my gratitude to those people whose shared their life to me.. thank you! more than words.. countless! God Bless us all and Good Vibes! many more surprises to come from God. :)) Im always praying for the best.. di man Nya lahat ginagrant, im still thankful coz i know His plans are always better than what we actually ask for! Saan nyo man ako nkilala, anuman pgkakilala nyo saken.. salamat.. im looking forward for more! ups and downs.. My 22 years of living is just small compare to others, but I dont mind comparing mine to them.. we are blessed in our own ways. I believe that God will make a way for me to succeed in the future and il do my best to do my part.

, di ito drama, gusto ko lang maexpress ang sarili ko at maabot kayong lahat through this.. Sabi nga, feeling gratitude and not expressing it is like wrapping a present and not giving it.

Openness is to wholeness as secrets is to sickness.

As I express my gratitude, I know that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them. Im giving thanks for everything that happens to me, knowing that every step forward is a step toward achieving something bigger and better than our current situation. I wish you all the best in life! more happiness to all! :))

Dont Dream Its Over! :))

- Louel Ace Lastrilla

February 24, 2011

11:15am